Well this did not work as well as I wanted. I have been crazy busy the last few days so my Internet usage has been very slow however the idea of bundling these up after a few days does appeal to me and IMO makes it a little easier to control.
✧~†Day Two†~✧
Latest Purchase (s)
I have just done an order from the website Bodyline for some wardrobe fillers and slightly more normal looking things. They have no actually arrived atm as they are stuck In customs but they will be items I plan to review for my blog.
Firstly I bought this simple jsk with delectable bows as I do not have many dresses I can wear casually. I am hoping that this dress will fit elegantly and be something I can enjoy on a summer day. Secondly I grabbed this cardigan in white. I already own this in black but I wanted the white to go with my dress that I am going to be wearing for the meet this Saturday. Thirdly I bought this blouse in the black-offwhite. I have NO IDEA if this is gonna fit, the size is a bit off for me in my breasts but since it was incredibly cheep I thought I would give it a go. No huge loss but it is a nice way to review it. Finally I got this derpy crown. yes I do think it looks daft but I plan to take it apart and make it look like something fancier with roses and doves~
✧~†Day Three†~✧
Something You love But Hardly Wear.
My boyfriend bought me this vampire requiem replica jsk some time ago and I do love it. It is the only replica that I own but I can not part with it. The dress has so much meaning to me so I keep it for days when me and Shinji are doing something special together.
✧~†Day Four†~✧
Favorite Bag
I adore this coffin bag that I bought from The Great Goth in Whitby. It is simple, solid and does the job whilst looking fabulous. I also love that it is a back pack so it is super easy to carry. I prefer bags that have a good look but a solid function. I dislike floppy bags like tote bags and only realy use a tote bag as a last minute thing or for my grocery shopping~
✧~†Day Five†~✧
What's In Your Bag
What's not in my bag? I tend to always carry a lot of essentials in my bag plus some emergency items.
My long purse and key.
Buspass.
Assorted make up.
Emergency monthly gift stick (if you know what I mean haha)
Mini sewing kit.
Hair cutting scissors.
Contact Lens solution.
Medication.
Tissues for Shinji (He gets realy bad instant nose bleeds sometimes so I always carry a bunch of tissues for him)
Mints.
Deodorant.
Perfume. Disney Princess Aurora.
Dust Mask.
Spare Wig Cap.
Hand Sanitizer.
Hair brush and comb.
Mp3 Player (This is actually Shinji's spare mp3 player that he does not use because he got a better one so he lets me use his)
It sounds like a lot but it really isn't. I have crazy OCD so without these items on a long day I feel like I have to have these things just in case. However this does not mean I can not deal without them. Usually if I am just with Shinji on my casual days, out of lolita, I just take my mini foundation pot, lip stick, eye shadow, purse, mints and maybe a perfume.
✧~†Day Six†~✧
On Trend Item You Are Loving.
An on trend item huh? Hmm I had to actually think pretty hard on this one as I do not follow any trends but I do wear something that seems to be trending atm and they are my heart chokers. I have two of these beauties, one in black and one in white. I wear them daily and I fell they really finish my look.
When I was a teen, my ex fiancée bought me a spiked studded collar that said "SLAVE" super classy I know but I wore it practically every day until I became a sweet lolita and got some level of self respect lol (That was a few eyars ago now as well I am pretty gothic again haha) I have quite a collection of chokers actually as you can see from the image above but I tend to keep my more special chokers/collars for certain looks. In my casual outfits I wear my heart choker, in my goth items I wear my studded collar and for my lolita coordinates I either wear my bird skull choker or one of my cross chokers. I think it's always nice to have some variety <3
I am obviously so manly that you can see my muscles through my burando. In all seriousness though I guess I am quite feminine? It s hard to describe in full honesty as I am gender fluid but I would describe myself as a person who likes to dress up and partake in more feminine activities disregarding gender.
How I dress in relation to this really depends on my mood. Above is a few realy bad selfies on my broken phone. Of course as you know I wear lolita dresses often but there are some occasions via normal wear where I shall wear figure hugging dresses, tights and high heels but then on the other part of this I wear legging, doc martins boots, over sized hoodies and slouch hats. This can be the same for anyone really but it varies for myself. I also do not always wear a lot of make up due to my skins reaction to it, I tend to just wear my eye liner and black eye shadow.
2. Are you tall or short?
5,4"-NOPE Apparently I am actually smaller than this. My mam is 5,5" and stood next to me after this was posted. I am more like 5,2"/5,3". So I am short but I wear a mix of normal and extreme platforms most of the time that put me up to 5,8", sometime 6'0" roughly. Most people believe I am tall but have a good giggle when the crazy platforms come off. The photograph below is of my shoe collection so you get the idea~
3. What’s your favorite color?
That to me is a trick question due to the spectrum effect. I often say that my favorite color is white however if white light is beamed through a prism it will then split up the light into a series
of colours. So you'll find that white light is actually made of many other colours. You can thank Newton for that fact you've just learned kids but white is my preferred color~
4. What do you love about yourself?
That to me is something hard to answer. I do not tend to think of many things that I actually enjoy about myself. I guess if I had to pick something I would say it is my ability to makes things just by looking at them. No I am not saying I am some sort of insane genius but I do have quite a few good skills when it comes to craft and cooking. I also enjoy the fact that I study a lot and am often full of facts and helpful tips from almost everything. People have started to say that I am a walking, talking, breathing wikipedia of useful and useless knowledge.
5. What’s your greatest flaw?
I don't tolerate intolerance. I was raised and educated to believe that everyone, from every form of life has an opinion and a mind of their own and therefore I should respect it. WELL, I don't. I can't stand discrimination of any kind. Homophobia, racism, transphobia, sexism etc... and I will out right tell it to your face. Ever since I gained this strong confidence of "not giving a single fuck" I have gotten myself into near fisty cuffs with random strangers who have performed something of these acts. I won't stand for it at all. Fuck freedom of speech when it comes to opinions of "race, gender, sexuality, etc...", if you can't accept science and how the human body actually functions then go fuck yourself.
6. Do you see yourself differently than other people describe you?
I often get described as a very extroverted person but in a way it is because I feel I have to be. I get really bad anxiety so by forcing myself into the "lime light" it helps me deal with it and over come it. I often just make a fool of myself, joke around and make people feel happy. In return, seeing their smiles makes me feel at home however when I am by myself I sit or walk around quietly, listening to Mozart or The Birthday Massacre. I enjoy peace and quiet~
7. What are you really, really good at?
Making things from viewing them. I have this ability to make things from scratch after I have seen them once. No, I am not talking about microchips but I guess anything is possible. I am mainly good with this ability via cooking and craft/clothing creation.
8. What’s something you’re bad at, but love?
Baking. Despite the fact that I am an aspiring chef and can cook amazingly, baking is not my strong point. I either bake okay or not very good at all. It is a skill I would like to improve because I feel if I choose to be a chef I should learn how to master baking too.
9. What’s something people have tried to force you to do?
Be something I am not. Needless to say I am my own person thanks to my loved ones, friends and family. All with my own aspirations and desires but for a long time I was encouraged to be something I was not to please others.
10. How do you spend your free time?
Playing Assassin's Creed, Dante's Inferno, The Sims games etc... When I am not gaming I study things from around the world and food or I am talking to friends and hanging out with my family and boyfriend~
11. Describe the way you dress in one sentence.
"A pleasant monochromatic nightmare with a resting bitch face"
12. Have you ever gotten your nails professionally painted?
I used to get them done quite a lot when I was into sweet lolita, hime and gyaru fashion. They were freaking huge but the cost of them got to much. £45 a month is not what I call a good investment when you can not to pick your nose.
13. What is the most insulting thing anyone has said to you?
I can not really say it without making everyone laugh at how pathetic this person is with his greezy hair and acne ridden body but it was something so silly that everyone who I have told about it role their eyes to hear it.
14. Favorite game?
Ooooo I guess its Assassins Creed Rogue <3 I have played it so many times I just fucking love it.
15. What color is your hair?
Half golden blond half black atm? I plan on making the blonder section white just like my wigs but I have been a little too busy atm. It has taken a very long time for my hair to grow back and this (Photograph below) is the result so far. This fun derpy photographs was due to me getting my dust mask but shows my hair so far.~
✧~†PHILOSOPHY†~✧
16. Do you believe in god?
Hmm I do not know. I believe it is something you will find out when your dead.
17. Is men’s rights a thing?
I am not sure what this question means but do you mean equal rights? Because then that is an obvious no brainer.
18. Does love really exist?
Yes, it is a chemical reaction in the brain. It is there to help us reproduce and protect our young, even animals have it~
19. Can science explain everything, eventually?
I believe it can yes. I am a strong believer in science. If it can be proven by facts and evidence then it simple is. Some things just need common sense.
20. Are we raised into what we love, or do we come to love it based on how we were raised?
This all depends on circumstance.
21. How do you feel about the school system?
I believe it is dated. Algebra? No teach our youth how to do tax's, how to grow food, how to survive in the wild, how to fix our planet. Instead our government keep our youth stupid so they can not amount to much without good money, extreme hard work or pure luck. The film below really expresses how I feel about education.
22. Do you believe in fate/destiny?
I do.
23. What is art?
An expression of imagination, skill and emotion.
24. Do we define ourselves, or does our past?
I believe the past helps make you who you are but in time we are defined by our actions in the present. You can not judge an adult for actions they did as a child you know?
25. What happens after we die?
I do not know but scientifically we rot, decompose and get eaten by worms.
26. Do humans matter--tiny specs on a
floating piece of rock in a solar 27. system in a galaxy in an infinite
universe?
I think we are fleas on a blue and green orb with the power to protect our earth, instead we destroy it. Humans are fucking stupid.
28. Is there good in everyone?
Thats just common sense. There is of course good and bad in everyone.
29. Does apathy really exist?
This is a stupid question. Apathy is"lack of interest, enthusiasm, or concern."
29. Is human life only valuable because our society makes it?
We are chemically designed to have emotion for our fellow mortals.
30. How do you feel about society, the vague “they” blamed for everything?
I do not understand the question fully but we are at fault for our own actions and the same others are at fault for their own actions whether it effects someone or not.
✧~† ROMANCE †~✧
31. What gender do you prefer?
None. I am "demi-sexual". I got wrong information some time back when others told me I was pansexual.
32. What’s the first thing you notice about someone?
Their eyes. In my opinion eyes are the window to the soul.
33. Could you love someone you found ugly?
Ugly on the inside? No the can fuck off.
Ugly on the outside? Of course I could love them.
34. Favorite hair color?
Well the depends entirely on the person but I do appreciate bright or wild colored hair on others~
35. Favorite eye color?
Unimportant.
36. Ideal height?
Unimportant.
37. Describe, personality-wise, what your ideal boy/girlfriend would be like?
A person who is loyal, loving and real. I like someone who can make me laugh. A person who can listen to what I have to say but not agree with everything I say (I don't like "yes people"). A person who likes me for me, flaws and all. A person who is open minded but also makes very dark jokes which a sick sense of humor. I also love intelligence and dig nice people. And I like someone who is not only open about their feelings but is public about with their protection and derpy devotion.
38. Describe, appearance-wise, what your ideal boy/girlfriend would be like?
I do not really care how a person looks tbf as long as they look after themselves aka are clean. Bad smells turn me away. I so however also enjoy people who are fashion forward and love to wear near matching outfits with me. I also enjoy cool styled hair and make up.~
39. What do you look for--brains or looks?
Brains.
40. Could you fall in love online?
I guess it could be done but I would HAVE to meet that person. No cat fish for me plez.
41. How much of an age cap can you handle?
Age does not bother me but as long as they are old enough to legally drink and not so old that they have grandchildren.
42. How would you introduce yourself on a blind date?
I would wear my favorite lolita coordinate and see how they react to me.
43. Could you forgive a cheater?
Nope.
44. Is lying about something serious as bad as cheating?
Depends on the lie really.
45. Right now, you could call the
person you like/love (if you aren’t dating/engaged/married already), or
show up at their front door, and just confess or kiss them or whatever.
What’s stopping you?
Well for a start I already have a boyfriend and all is cool so yes I could call him and tell him I love him... again. He just left a few hours ago though and is at work so it may be a pain atm haha.
Secondly no, I do not think Mana-Sama would appreciate me flinging my frilly ass at him. Neither would his wife or children haha.
Thirdly, I am monogamous so if this WAS to happen it would be when I was
not in a relationship. Doing it whilst your already committed to
someone is a dick move.
This was one of the most funnest meets to date despite the schizophrenic weather. We made many a jokes shouting family guy quotes of "ITS RAINING SIDEWAYS". The rain was not heavy at all but it was drizzly and light. When the wind gave a gust it rained to the side often. We firstly (Me, Ophelia and Shinji) the picnic area in a small enclosed area in the park. Almost as if we were sat in our own private fairy tale park.
The food was quite varied and
very yummy. We planned that everyone would bring something for us all
to share and it was a lovely choice. I brought a huge tray of
sandwiches. Meat choice as ham and peas pudding, ham and deviled eggs
and ham and veg. The vegetarian choice was deviled egg and the vegan
choice was falafel. I also brought a kettle with a portable stove and
made many a cups of tea and hot chocolate.
Everyone looked so lovely and despite the weather got some really lovely coordinate photographs~
I decided to go all shiro with an outfit based on the white queen (alice in wonderland). The eyeshadow
was extremely glittery with mini silver stars at the start of the day
but these photos were taken at the end and all the glitter was gone by
then. I was wearing a veil but I took it out for my outfit photographs as i felt it did not go 100%. My bolero is more of a
cream white than white (as you can probably tell) and was a last minute
choice for warmth for the cold. If you have seen any bolero's or
cardigans recently in white for sale that are stretchy with puffy
shoulders and are a bit longer (go to the waist a bit more) please link
me I'd appreciate it~
Before this topic begins I want to state that a person should always think things through before considering or going through such a type of operation. Despite how small or big it is you should always consult an expert as well as speak to your doctor.
Leading Up & Back Story.
This is an old pic of me from years ago when I sued to wear pink. This is one of the only photographs I had that I did not photoshop my growth/mole out from my nose. It is large here but it got bigger afterwards (more photographs below)
When I was about 16 years old a small mole/growth started to appear on the right side of my nose. I was nearing the end of school and during this time period my final exams had begun. I do not know what triggered the growth but by the age of 18 I had a large mole grow on the tip of my nose. I have been very lucky to have been born with natural beauty spots on my cheeks as well as heterochromia in my eyes but when a person is known to have moles on the face sooner or later an unwanted growth/mole may occur and in my case it was on my nose.
It was something I did not like to talk about nor even point out but as I got older I started to realize it had gotten much bigger and was getting pointed out by others. One of this situations was during a job interview at 19 years old (I believe). At the interview the man who was doing my interview handing me a tissue and inform me I needed to clean my nose (he was very kind about it) so I did so and he pointed out where it was. He had mistaken the mole on my nose for "nose gold". Of course the man was embarrassed and extremely apologetic but that was the first time I ever considered the mole on my nose an issue. I did visit the doctor to gain help for this at one point but something happened in my family and I decided not to pursue it.
At 21 years of age I coated my mole in make up to one try and hide it and two keep it covered the bet I could however it was now quite large and something began to case issue. A year after this I spotted that the growth was quite large and whenever I cleaned or pushed my nose a stinging pain shotting up my face. This was new and concerning but at the time my life had taken a different turn and I was "reborn" into my new life and all that jazz you don't really care about (haha~)
FYI. One of the things I used to do for confidence reasons was to reduce the mole size on my nose in pictures. Its a 5 second job in photoshop to reduce the size of something this annoying so for reason of aiding those who may go through with the surgery I am showing a pic of how big it actually was and how obvious it was too. The pic below is actually the size of the growth on my nose and as you can see it ain't pretty. This painful growth/mole was getting huge and swollen.
The nose without make up. Gross I know right?
Consultation & Issues
So about 6 months ago I spotted that the growth on my nose had started to go black in the middle. Whenever I moved to touched my nose the wrong way that stinging pain remained. I had no idea why it did this so I decided to take the bull by the horns and go and see my doctor and a plastic surgeon.
My trip to the plastic surgery building was.... overwhelming and I almost walked out in fear of the staff. I won't name the place in case of legal issues or seeming as if I am trying to soil their reputation because of one pushy staff member. I popped into the building after making my appointment and met with this young women. I explained the issues emotionally and physically to her. I also informed this women that I did not know what to do like "Should i get it removed or do I need rhinoplasty?" Before I could even say that I was inexperienced in this, this young women started tossing all this rhino stuff down my neck. I sat there trying to speak but she kept saying how it'll cost £xxxxx and they would get me a car to Manchester for the surgery and the healing process yadda yadda- Needly to say I blinked wildly and said "I think I just need a growth removal"When she did finally stop she sent me through to see the manager of the facility. This was an older woman (not old just older) who was very calm and very friendly. She took one look at my nose and said "You do not need rhinoplasty at all, a simple removal is all it'll take" She took my details and talked me through everything which I have to say she was so very nice about it all and was the right kind of women you want to meet when deciding on what surgery you want. She herself had had many treatment and so had much experience in the field.
After this I started to save my money to get the surgery myself but when I hit the £250 mark in my savings it started to go worse. The pain in my nose started to become unbearable so I went to my doctor to see if he could provide me with some drugs to ease the pain. My doctor was very kind and said the pain was very concerning. He explained because of where it was on my face that it was stretching the side of my nose causing the pain I had been feeling. He made me an appointment to meet a specialist at the Queen Elizabeth Hospital to look into my nose future.
At the QE plastic surgery department me and Shinji sat in the waiting room to be seen, he came in with me to be assessed and after a few moments the doctor confirmed that they would remove it themselves due to the painful side effects the growth was giving me.A month had passed and I received a letter informing me of my surgery date. Due to the nature of the growth and the pain it was causing the doctor helped me get it removed for free. I was very grateful and soon enough I went to be cut in the face.
The Face Cutting/ Surgery
My face after being tagged and told to put these robes on. Sorry for weird contrasted low quality pics the room was super dark and I used my crap mobile for photographs.
WE waited 2 hours to be seen for my surgery and I sent Shinji away after an hour to entertain himself until it was done. When I was taking into the department floor I was in a room filled with 6 other mini room hidden by cloth rails. The nurse informed me to take off all my clothes (wat) and to put on the medical garments. I was allowed to keep my knickers on thankfully but covered myself in the robes provided including these weird half shoes half socks. As I waited I was visited by a nurse who took my details and kept my company for a short while as I waited for the doctor. We spoke for awhile about Japanese culture (he spotted what I was wearing as I came it an got curious) and then left me to wait after he put the medical bracelets on me. The doctor performing my surgery came in about 15 minutes later, marked my nose with an arriw and talked me through what he was going to. I then was guided by a nurse to the room where they were going to perform the removal.
I can assure you this is an extreme close up of my huge beak of a nose and is not as big as it seems. Unless you want it to be then yes I have a beak, not a nose haha~
They informed me that I could not take my camera into the room as it was a phone camera and it may effect the equipment so I have no photographs or film of what they did to my face until after.
!!WARNING !!
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IF you are screamish or do not like to hear about gore skip this bit of information as I am going to be talking through what happened to me! After the "*" the graphic details will have ended and it will be safe to read again.
As I got into the room it was huge and filled with about 6 nurses with the doctor. Some of them were trainees and I did not mind them learning. As I was a cocky little so and so I sat there thinking that the surgery would be a breeze. I had ripped off a mole on my shoulder some time ago and yes it stung but it did not seem to be an issue but boy did I eat my words. The radio was playing in the background as the sat me on the medical bed. As I lay down the head nurse walked to the other side of me and said "Would you like me to hold your hand? This bit with the injection is going to hurt quit a bit" again cocky little me looked to the side. The needle was huge the doctor laughed and said "Don't look" so I turned away but I was more curious. I thought that this whole time I would watch everything and it would be fine.
Then he put the needle in. I.screamed. NOT a little scream I mean holy f***ing mother of god that hurt like a b****! They explained to me after that the needle was larger due to how tough the skin on the nose actually is. The nurse grabbed my hand and I held onto it for dear life. The doctor told me to try to breath as I held my breath from the pain (being tensed up makes it worse) but I could not help it. Tear streamed down my face as he put the needle around the growth at least 10 times, making sure the numbing solution was in deep enough for him to do the surgery. When he pulled the needle out my nose stung awfully and blood dripped out down the side of my face but at this point the numbing had begun so after a few seconds my nose felt nothing. The nurse laughed as I said "WELL, that escalated quickly" and she gave me a tissue to wipe my tears away.
I lay down again. They cleaned the blood off of my face then coated my face in 3 sheets as they put the blinding giant light on me. Eyes shut and feeling nothing he worked his magic. He explained I would feel only tugging and pulling but no pain would effect me. He coated my nose is medical solution to avoid infection. All I could think of was HOW PAINFUL this would be without that painful injection. It was simple realy. Firstly he use a scalpel to cut the growth off of my face, he then took this tiny shaver then removed into inner growth to stop it growing back and to smooth the area out to give me a normal nose again then he finished it off by cauterising (to seal the area by burning it) the area and it was that simple! He then put a plaster on my nose and sent me off in a wheelchair to the recovery ward.
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I felt the wheel chair was unnecessary but as the nurse took me to the recovery ward the after effect of the injection hit me like a brick. I was exhausted and quite dizzy. They took me into this curtained room and let me get changed. They actually told me to sit in for an hour to recover and have some tea but being the stubborn person that I am (and because if your okay enough to walk you should not waste a space in a ward due to someone may need it more than you) I shoved on my clothing and after finishing paper work I walked out with the nurse. Shinji waited for me outside and took me to his house to rest. I was so dizzy, I struggled a bit to get into the car but after we got to Shinji's he made me go to sleep on his bed. He was so nice in taking care of me after the surgery and I slept like a brick until the drug wore off properly.
Make up had be cried off. I was KO'd.
After Care & Healing
Before I continue there are two annoying points I want to add about this sort of surgery and is one of the main points of after care. Also do not eat before your surgery at least 12 hours. Due to the nature of the job you can not get your bandage wet for at least 24 hours but I was informed to try and wait at least 3 days before washing my face because the chemical may irritate the burn. They informed me if you want to wash your face use cold water only. This was a nightmare. Not only do I usually scrub my face with lots of stuff but I use hot water and steam to clean my face as I have a huge issue with pours on my nose. After these 3 days my pour were horrid but I am back to scrubbing my face now and it is much better. ALSO the second thing was no foundation of any kind of the face.
Derp face in lolita with new bandage.
Had tea with Ophelia using her amazingly cute tea set
The after care was actually pretty simple. It mainly consisted of changing my bandage, applying savlon quite often and making sure it got air as soon as I came home. I did have to leave the house a few times with the dressing on and let me tell you, walking around town, in frills with a bandage on your face makes you look like your either a frilly boxer or your trying to recreate a guro lolita look but stopping at your nose like "nailed it".
Gross pic but looking much better already
After the first like two days a huge scab formed on my nose but due to how fast I was healing it fell off quickly. I also spotted that when I am concentrating I touch my nose alot which does not help when it feels like someone has just performed the scene from Alien when Sigourney Weave kills the alien queen in that giant robot suit after just setting fire to the queens eggs. So half way through the healing process the mark of my nose looked just like a burn but my heart lifted as soon as that scab fell off. It shocked me how symmetrical my nose actually is.
My face looking worse for wear but healing. (not well in this photograph)
For the longest time I always thought my nose was crooked when actually it has just been the growth the whole time. I am quite happy with the result and now that it is basically fully healed the pain is gone. There is no more pulling of my skin, no more agitation heck there is not even any sign (other than the healing dot left over) that I have even had surgery. It feels amazing and it was totally worth the pain.
Gross pic of the healing process
As you can see it has taken some time (a littler quicker due to I heal really fast) to heal but it has also played hell with my face. I am the sort of person that if you stop your cleaning process you have to do a complete overhaul after to rejuvenate your skin.However the end result are fantastic! I feel so relieved to have a normal face again and it has been a funny positive joke in the household. My mother keeps forgetting its gone and get a nice shock when she looks over at me to see it is gone and i know its silly but I even let Shinji kiss and touch my nose now. I never used to like him doing that but now we can perform our vomit educating romance to the world without a care. Its also lovely to touch my nose and for it not to be there. I often use to touch the growth on my nose in hopes for it to go away but now that it is gone I can not help but feel overjoyed. I can take photographs from other angles now without worry too! No more photoshopping my growth smaller because its f***** off! Its funny how something so small can make you feel so bad and it has also changed my opinion about plastic surgery~
Results & Final Thoughts
Oh so serious photo but results are clear now.
Today was my first meet up after the surgery and I could not be more happy. It feels like a new me and more so it a huge weight lifted from my shoulders (or my face tbf haha).
So the last question of all this and final thought is "Would you consider getting plastic surgery again?" I guess I would given the choice. It is in our nature as mere mortal to strive for certain levels of perfection. Whether large or small we crave for some level of attention with a need to be referred to in a positive light. As women we are surrounded by photo manipulated media images of the ideal "perfect woman" but at the same time we have been taught that "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" So which is it? Is the out look of a majority more important than the opinions of the few? For me there are things I would like to change, after all I am only human and as a human I have unrealistic hopes and dreams of ideal beauty.
However if there was things I would change it would only be things that I consider "unnatural" or an issue to my health such as scars, skin tags or growths/moles like the one on my nose that is now gone. I am actually considering looking into breast reduction as these things case my a lot of spinal problem. Over the years I have learned to accept myself for who I am and have taken so much time realizing that being myself is more important than trying to be something everyone else wants you to be. So yes I would but nothing too drastic. I know that what I have gone through is only a small thing but it had build my confidence up massively. I hope that if you feel you need to change something you can without worry~
Thank you for reading my little story. Please feel free to share your thoughts on plastic surgery.
